Am I really that dumb or what? What did i do wrong? Can someone explain why this happens? When you study so hard and end up having such a bad result but people who don't study or does not attend class get better grade!
Why...why...why?? Enlighten me =(((
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
You
There is so many things that is running in my mind. Wonder if you will be able to help me solve all the unanswered questions. I guess that I am ready for any answers that you will be giving. Don't make me hang in there and assume that everything is going fine. Show me the answer!!!
Guess that I misled myself. But you did not bring me back to the right path either. We just went the opposite way until recently. What is that suppose to mean? I have to assume all is going well when sometimes its not and it can get really bothersome.
I found another one to be the substitute but oh well guess you did stole something away that cannot be forgotten or it is irreplaceable. How i wish i had a time machine that could turn back time =) Again we were both at fault. I was running another direction but somehow it never works out right. The starting point its always the same. You were the starting point.
I've ask and seek and the answers were the same thing I have seen whenever i ask. I does happen!! So what is that suppose to mean? Positive or negative? Every answer i seek it seems its positive however it does not seem like it. Is it because i reason too much? think too much? Please answer all this question =)
I like what was written by you:
Never let anyone look down on you. Be who you are! (I think its a little rephrased...oh well that's the main point)
Guess that I misled myself. But you did not bring me back to the right path either. We just went the opposite way until recently. What is that suppose to mean? I have to assume all is going well when sometimes its not and it can get really bothersome.
I found another one to be the substitute but oh well guess you did stole something away that cannot be forgotten or it is irreplaceable. How i wish i had a time machine that could turn back time =) Again we were both at fault. I was running another direction but somehow it never works out right. The starting point its always the same. You were the starting point.
I've ask and seek and the answers were the same thing I have seen whenever i ask. I does happen!! So what is that suppose to mean? Positive or negative? Every answer i seek it seems its positive however it does not seem like it. Is it because i reason too much? think too much? Please answer all this question =)
I like what was written by you:
Never let anyone look down on you. Be who you are! (I think its a little rephrased...oh well that's the main point)
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Guess what..its already three months I am here. Time does fly really fast....cant imagine that. Life here is good - not the food though - maybe not during weekends when it can get pretty boring doing the same thing every week. Been cooking whatever I can seem to find to make a meal.
Did some shopping yesterday. And i told Fel I spent RM 500 and dad was coming after me =p it did not happen!!! they clothes i bought were much much cheaper than that! I manage to save RM 100 over since they were sales for winter. On weather forecast snow should be falling on either Tuesday or Wednesday! I am so totally prepared for it. =)
Being far far away from home country really teach me a lot! I guess that when you are away from the most comfortable place and get into a whole new thing it is difficult but the experience is going to be so valuable!! That is also when you know how many true friends you actually have or more so people who actually cares! =) I am not speaking to anyone in person but in general. That is what I got from observing.
God has been really good since they day i left Malaysian and into a foreign land. Its like the story of the footsteps - where he carries that person through it. I have chosen my spring classes and there again God was in control of everything. I was able to go into a class that requires pre-requisite class. God is always faithful when you trust in HIM!
Psalms 5:12
Did some shopping yesterday. And i told Fel I spent RM 500 and dad was coming after me =p it did not happen!!! they clothes i bought were much much cheaper than that! I manage to save RM 100 over since they were sales for winter. On weather forecast snow should be falling on either Tuesday or Wednesday! I am so totally prepared for it. =)
Being far far away from home country really teach me a lot! I guess that when you are away from the most comfortable place and get into a whole new thing it is difficult but the experience is going to be so valuable!! That is also when you know how many true friends you actually have or more so people who actually cares! =) I am not speaking to anyone in person but in general. That is what I got from observing.
God has been really good since they day i left Malaysian and into a foreign land. Its like the story of the footsteps - where he carries that person through it. I have chosen my spring classes and there again God was in control of everything. I was able to go into a class that requires pre-requisite class. God is always faithful when you trust in HIM!
Psalms 5:12
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Confused
What does it mean when you ask for something and you see it the next day?? Do you doubt? Do you question again and again? Tell me what do you do? So confused at this point!!!! And the thing you ask come in different form..so???
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Lead, leading
Saw this somewhere and I find it very interesting
Found this excellent article by Paul Baloche for us worship leaders
Within our American Idol/Rock Star culture, often the goal is all about having–and keeping–the spotlight. As Christians, we belong to a least-is-the-greatest kingdom that pronounces the exact opposite, and yet worship leaders must regularly wrestle with the dynamics of being onstage in front of crowds.
Even the typical “worship service” setup (platform, microphones, spotlights, etc.), for example, forces its leaders to walk dangerously close to those “rock star” elements while making sure the attention stays solely on God. There are many things that we can do to help us from being infected by our performance culture and as always we find timeless wisdom in the ancient text of scripture.
There is a Priestly model described in 1 Chronicles as “ministry to the Lord”. The Levites didn’t “lead people” in worship but instead were charged with the task of ‘singing praise to God both day and night, in the temple. They sang to the Invisible God – an audience of One. How often do we minister to God in private? Ideally, worship leading is publicly modeling what we have been doing privately. A healthy habit is to “practice” worship throughout the week by creating some alone time with God and by singing songs and prayers to Him. Often I will go into my church sanctuary by myself or with a few core members of my team and we’ll read scripture out loud, especially psalms, which is the vocabulary of worship. We’ll begin to play guitar or keyboard very simply to create a worshipful atmosphere while speaking and singing out psalms and heart-felt prayers. It may feel slightly forced at first, perhaps mechanical, but if you persist in “showing up” to bless the Lord in private, you will begin to sense more of His presence and authority in your outward, public ministry.
The other aspect of our ministry is Pastoral. Guitar players and singers are “a dime a dozen’ as the saying goes. But those who will give their time and talents in service to God and His people are rare. Jesus asked Peter, “do you love me?” Peter replied, “Yes Lord”. “feed my sheep.” Ask The Lord to give you HIS heart for the community that you serve. Before you dismiss your team from rehearsal, have them come to the front of the stage and look over the empty seats. Ask them to imagine the people who will be sitting there this coming week and encourage your team to pray for the individuals and families who will be showing up in those seats. This is a powerful exercise to help you and your team cultivate God’s heart and love for the people you serve.
I would encourage you to lean toward more of a conversational tone in your leading style as you begin your service. People don’t like being yelled at, manipulated, or artificially hyped up. Whether you lead fifty people, three hundred, or more than a thousand, aim for being as authentic and sincere as you can. We don’t have to be overly sanguine. People respond best when they sense someone being themselves. In fact I used to always pray something like this under my breathe before I walked on the platform. “Lord, at the risk of being boring, please give me the courage to be ‘who I am in You’– nothing more, nothing less.” We all battle our insecurities in different ways but practicing our ministry to The Lord and praying for the people we serve will take us a long way in distinguishing between performance and effective ministry.
Let’s determine to finish well by helping facilitate a lifelong conversation and sense of community between God and the people He has called us to serve.
Paul
Found this excellent article by Paul Baloche for us worship leaders
Within our American Idol/Rock Star culture, often the goal is all about having–and keeping–the spotlight. As Christians, we belong to a least-is-the-greatest kingdom that pronounces the exact opposite, and yet worship leaders must regularly wrestle with the dynamics of being onstage in front of crowds.
Even the typical “worship service” setup (platform, microphones, spotlights, etc.), for example, forces its leaders to walk dangerously close to those “rock star” elements while making sure the attention stays solely on God. There are many things that we can do to help us from being infected by our performance culture and as always we find timeless wisdom in the ancient text of scripture.
There is a Priestly model described in 1 Chronicles as “ministry to the Lord”. The Levites didn’t “lead people” in worship but instead were charged with the task of ‘singing praise to God both day and night, in the temple. They sang to the Invisible God – an audience of One. How often do we minister to God in private? Ideally, worship leading is publicly modeling what we have been doing privately. A healthy habit is to “practice” worship throughout the week by creating some alone time with God and by singing songs and prayers to Him. Often I will go into my church sanctuary by myself or with a few core members of my team and we’ll read scripture out loud, especially psalms, which is the vocabulary of worship. We’ll begin to play guitar or keyboard very simply to create a worshipful atmosphere while speaking and singing out psalms and heart-felt prayers. It may feel slightly forced at first, perhaps mechanical, but if you persist in “showing up” to bless the Lord in private, you will begin to sense more of His presence and authority in your outward, public ministry.
The other aspect of our ministry is Pastoral. Guitar players and singers are “a dime a dozen’ as the saying goes. But those who will give their time and talents in service to God and His people are rare. Jesus asked Peter, “do you love me?” Peter replied, “Yes Lord”. “feed my sheep.” Ask The Lord to give you HIS heart for the community that you serve. Before you dismiss your team from rehearsal, have them come to the front of the stage and look over the empty seats. Ask them to imagine the people who will be sitting there this coming week and encourage your team to pray for the individuals and families who will be showing up in those seats. This is a powerful exercise to help you and your team cultivate God’s heart and love for the people you serve.
I would encourage you to lean toward more of a conversational tone in your leading style as you begin your service. People don’t like being yelled at, manipulated, or artificially hyped up. Whether you lead fifty people, three hundred, or more than a thousand, aim for being as authentic and sincere as you can. We don’t have to be overly sanguine. People respond best when they sense someone being themselves. In fact I used to always pray something like this under my breathe before I walked on the platform. “Lord, at the risk of being boring, please give me the courage to be ‘who I am in You’– nothing more, nothing less.” We all battle our insecurities in different ways but practicing our ministry to The Lord and praying for the people we serve will take us a long way in distinguishing between performance and effective ministry.
Let’s determine to finish well by helping facilitate a lifelong conversation and sense of community between God and the people He has called us to serve.
Paul
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Monday, October 4, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
bemidji
Been ages since i blogged her...
Bemidji is so beautiful that I cant ask for more...Thank God for all He has done and all other things that are yet to come!!! =) being here reminds a lots of things and yes they are making me open my eyes to see things in a wider scope. It help me admire the earth that He made =) The sky is so beautiful...clean and fresh. It goes to the extend that in the morning i would walk out form the hall I am living in and get some fresh air before entering class =)). It feels so refreshing.
Weather here is awesome...seriously. It can be as crazy as a women!!! So we have to always be prepared to have our sweat shirt with us =) Everything here is so beautiful that i can't ask for more!! Campus is just next to the lake and when the lake freezes we can walk on it and go ice fishing!!! Something on my to-do list =)
Guess I am growing spiritually too =) Haven't really yet confirm which will be my home church but guess its all God's leading. I have found intervasity and i guess its just the first step. Currently the church that i am attending has most intervasity people there. Though the people are as friendly as Malaysia i guess I have to start somewhere. And yes people back in Malaysia...stop complaining. Church is this, that....bla bla bla. Appreciate what you have!!! People in Malaysia are way way nicer when it comes to church - i meant in hospitality...they are way way more welcoming than people here!!! Guess this is what i was until i come here. lesson learn.
Anyway everything has been falling into place really well and Thank God for Malaysian friends who are so helpful =) Plus they are treat me like their little sister...so awesome for them
Miss all back home....in different parts of the world!!!!
Bemidji is so beautiful that I cant ask for more...Thank God for all He has done and all other things that are yet to come!!! =) being here reminds a lots of things and yes they are making me open my eyes to see things in a wider scope. It help me admire the earth that He made =) The sky is so beautiful...clean and fresh. It goes to the extend that in the morning i would walk out form the hall I am living in and get some fresh air before entering class =)). It feels so refreshing.
Weather here is awesome...seriously. It can be as crazy as a women!!! So we have to always be prepared to have our sweat shirt with us =) Everything here is so beautiful that i can't ask for more!! Campus is just next to the lake and when the lake freezes we can walk on it and go ice fishing!!! Something on my to-do list =)
Guess I am growing spiritually too =) Haven't really yet confirm which will be my home church but guess its all God's leading. I have found intervasity and i guess its just the first step. Currently the church that i am attending has most intervasity people there. Though the people are as friendly as Malaysia i guess I have to start somewhere. And yes people back in Malaysia...stop complaining. Church is this, that....bla bla bla. Appreciate what you have!!! People in Malaysia are way way nicer when it comes to church - i meant in hospitality...they are way way more welcoming than people here!!! Guess this is what i was until i come here. lesson learn.
Anyway everything has been falling into place really well and Thank God for Malaysian friends who are so helpful =) Plus they are treat me like their little sister...so awesome for them
Miss all back home....in different parts of the world!!!!
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