Monday, December 20, 2010

First and far most of course i want to thank God for the most awesome result that i got for my first semester....really cant ask for something better. Hard work and effort put in definitely did pay off and of course God's favor was upon me too!!! Seriously my CGPA here is so much better compared to Malaysia! So happy! =)

Having an awesome time here in Buffalo with Li Sia and her housemates. They are all so nice and friendly! So nice of them...finally i have been around int the States! I have been to Niagara Falls...cant imagine man! Oh well...i know that this is the best gift i receive from my parents =) hahaha!!! Tomorrow will be heading to the outlet to do some shopping especially for aunty Audrey and her family! Cant wait to see them...its been ages since i've seen Aunty Audrey.

Time apart tells me something =) guess you are soon or going to steal something away from me! Seriously this is the weirdest feeling i have so far! I did not realize it but i guess i miss that person! =)


Anyway.....cant imagine i am going back to Bemidji without my senior whom i have been close since coming to Bemidji. I am so going to miss hanging out with them!!! =( They have been the best and they are the most awesome people! =)




 Joanne

 Sun Yong

Kaleena

Thursday, December 16, 2010

move out from dorm into my home i will call for at least 3 semester. Am so grateful for the off campus home. Home feel so much better than being in the dorm. Cooking food is going to be a sure fun thing! hahaha =)

Will be staying in the new home for two days before i leave for my winter break. So excited man! Going to see Li Sia and my aunt whom i have not seen for years! Excited to see my couz whom i have not seen!

Guess i am over you...hopefully all things wok out =) keeping fingers cross!

Well am loving all the new things =)

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

It has been like i think 4 days since finals is over! Am super glad that it happen! Like seriously! This means that I am officially over with my first semester. Super excited with the winter break! First holiday alone without my parents! Going to be interesting one indeed..since i am going on the trip with a blur prawn =) hahaha

Seriously...life here has been fun with all the ups and downs and all the misses! It so much different from being so comfortable at home! When you are on your own and independent somehow you have to find your own way to "survive". The most interesting thing that someone said about me is that...i am talkative. raise eyebrown...like seriously!!!! Funny indeed but oh well i know was only one person opinion. Haha....however that is not the truth....i am still the very same person that was in Malaysia -introvert..shy...oh well....

All in all i have learn a lot from being alone! Seriously I am going to miss the people i am so attach too despite knowing them for only like 3 months =( guess that is life.....people come and go.

Spiritually...i think i have been growing and always looking forward going to church and learning something new.....just admire how the Pastor help me look at the Word of God at a different perspective =p

i still miss people back at home so much =) just heard a song that someone post up....seriously i miss you but guess that is not the way we both should take huh....oh well.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

faith!



WITH GOD NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!!! HAVE FAITH

-NOW FAITH IS THE ASSURANCE OF THINGS HOPED FOR, THE CONVICTION OF THINGS NOT SEEN. HEBREWS 11:1-

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Hold On



So timely!!! =)

Monday, November 8, 2010

misses



What a coincidence...was just thinking of you and you showed this to your sis =) Miss you!

Really miss those who have gone to a better place - Joash Wee - but this song reminds me that we will meet each other again!

Miss everyone back home! I wish I was back home being all comfy!

Miss my family - where everything is provided
Miss my friends - the fun times...the low times..our crazy moments
Miss you - the care...the concern. Appreciate you much!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Hakuna Matata



Just love this guy so much...with no legs and hand yet he live a life like a normal human! So awesome.

There is one part that i like so much. That was exactly what the someone say - more like wrote down =)

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Had been confined to the room on Saturday as there went anything much to do =( but oh well decided to do something productive instead...was on a movie marathon!! yes...i watch like 3 movie straight on youtube. I have actually watch 2 shows before but i wanted to watch it again. Memories flash back to when I was in high school when I was watching Facing the Giants!

I guess I related very well to the show because I was part of my high school netball team since form 1. It was a great experience then especially when I was in form 1 as i was chosen last minute because someone got injured. Really appreciated the experience of 5 years.

While watching the movie, it showed them praying before the start of the game and the end of the game. Plus it said that win or lose we will still praise Him. That was exactly what we did. Whether we win or lose, before and after the game we still prayed and thank Him. This really show when we manage to get medals every year. When we honor Him, He will honor us!

Not only that, we were the only school that comprise of fully Chinese students. We were very much pretty small in size and height. Other schools have players that are bigger and taller than us yet we still manage to over come them. Its exactly what the show showed.

I remembered when I was in form 4 and we were in the finals which we did not expect...and we faced Sungai Besi, which is one of the strongest team. It was a tough match as we draw but before the final whistle we manage to pull through. That was the moment when we face all the GIANTS and mange to overcome it. The feeling was so wonderful.

This very much goes the same to what we face in our daily life. We will be overcomers of the GIANTS when He is with us and carry us through it - like the footsteps.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Am I really that dumb or what? What did i do wrong? Can someone explain why this happens? When you study so hard and end up having such a bad result but people who don't study or does not attend class get better grade!

Why...why...why?? Enlighten me =(((

Monday, October 25, 2010

You

There is so many things that is running in my mind. Wonder if you will be able to help me solve all the unanswered questions. I guess that I am ready for any answers that you will be giving. Don't make me hang in there and assume that everything is going fine. Show me the answer!!!

Guess that I misled myself. But you did not bring me back to the right path either. We just went the opposite way until recently. What is that suppose to mean? I have to assume all is going well when sometimes its not and it can get really bothersome.

I found another one to be the substitute but oh well guess you did stole something away that cannot be forgotten or it is irreplaceable. How i wish i had a time machine that could turn back time =) Again we were both at fault. I was running another direction but somehow it never works out right. The starting point its always the same. You were the starting point.

I've ask and seek and the answers were the same thing I have seen whenever i ask. I does happen!! So what is that suppose to mean? Positive or negative? Every answer i seek it seems its positive however it does not seem like it. Is it because i reason too much? think too much? Please answer all this question =)

I like what was written by you:
Never let anyone look down on you. Be who you are! (I think its a little rephrased...oh well that's the main point)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Guess what..its already three months I am here. Time does fly really fast....cant imagine that. Life here is good - not the food though - maybe not during weekends when it can get pretty boring doing the same thing every week. Been cooking whatever I can seem to find to make a meal.

Did some shopping yesterday. And i told Fel I spent RM 500 and dad was coming after me =p it did not happen!!! they clothes i bought were much much cheaper than that! I manage to save RM 100 over since they were sales for winter. On weather forecast snow should be falling on either Tuesday or Wednesday! I am so totally prepared for it. =)

Being far far away from home country really teach me a lot! I guess that when you are away from the most comfortable place and get into a whole new thing it is difficult but the experience is going to be so valuable!! That is also when you know how many true friends you actually have or more so people who actually cares! =) I am not speaking to anyone in person but in general. That is what I got from observing.

God has been really good since they day i left Malaysian and into a foreign land. Its like the story of the footsteps - where he carries that person through it. I have chosen my spring classes and there again God was in control of everything. I was able to go into a class that requires pre-requisite class. God is always faithful when you trust in HIM!

Psalms 5:12

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Confused

What does it mean when you ask for something and you see it the next day?? Do you doubt? Do you question again and again? Tell me what do you do? So confused at this point!!!! And the thing you ask come in different form..so???

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Lead, leading

Saw this somewhere and I find it very interesting

Found this excellent article by Paul Baloche for us worship leaders

Within our American Idol/Rock Star culture, often the goal is all about having–and keeping–the spotlight. As Christians, we belong to a least-is-the-greatest kingdom that pronounces the exact opposite, and yet worship leaders must regularly wrestle with the dynamics of being onstage in front of crowds.

Even the typical “worship service” setup (platform, microphones, spotlights, etc.), for example, forces its leaders to walk dangerously close to those “rock star” elements while making sure the attention stays solely on God. There are many things that we can do to help us from being infected by our performance culture and as always we find timeless wisdom in the ancient text of scripture.

There is a Priestly model described in 1 Chronicles as “ministry to the Lord”. The Levites didn’t “lead people” in worship but instead were charged with the task of ‘singing praise to God both day and night, in the temple. They sang to the Invisible God – an audience of One. How often do we minister to God in private? Ideally, worship leading is publicly modeling what we have been doing privately. A healthy habit is to “practice” worship throughout the week by creating some alone time with God and by singing songs and prayers to Him. Often I will go into my church sanctuary by myself or with a few core members of my team and we’ll read scripture out loud, especially psalms, which is the vocabulary of worship. We’ll begin to play guitar or keyboard very simply to create a worshipful atmosphere while speaking and singing out psalms and heart-felt prayers. It may feel slightly forced at first, perhaps mechanical, but if you persist in “showing up” to bless the Lord in private, you will begin to sense more of His presence and authority in your outward, public ministry.

The other aspect of our ministry is Pastoral. Guitar players and singers are “a dime a dozen’ as the saying goes. But those who will give their time and talents in service to God and His people are rare. Jesus asked Peter, “do you love me?” Peter replied, “Yes Lord”. “feed my sheep.” Ask The Lord to give you HIS heart for the community that you serve. Before you dismiss your team from rehearsal, have them come to the front of the stage and look over the empty seats. Ask them to imagine the people who will be sitting there this coming week and encourage your team to pray for the individuals and families who will be showing up in those seats. This is a powerful exercise to help you and your team cultivate God’s heart and love for the people you serve.

I would encourage you to lean toward more of a conversational tone in your leading style as you begin your service. People don’t like being yelled at, manipulated, or artificially hyped up. Whether you lead fifty people, three hundred, or more than a thousand, aim for being as authentic and sincere as you can. We don’t have to be overly sanguine. People respond best when they sense someone being themselves. In fact I used to always pray something like this under my breathe before I walked on the platform. “Lord, at the risk of being boring, please give me the courage to be ‘who I am in You’– nothing more, nothing less.” We all battle our insecurities in different ways but practicing our ministry to The Lord and praying for the people we serve will take us a long way in distinguishing between performance and effective ministry.

Let’s determine to finish well by helping facilitate a lifelong conversation and sense of community between God and the people He has called us to serve.

Paul

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

He gives strength to the weary
And increase the power of the weak

Isaiah 40:29

Monday, October 4, 2010

我想念你

Friday, October 1, 2010

bemidji

Been ages since i blogged her...

Bemidji is so beautiful that I cant ask for more...Thank God for all He has done and all other things that are yet to come!!! =) being here reminds a lots of things and yes they are making me open my eyes to see things in a wider scope. It help me admire the earth that He made =) The sky is so beautiful...clean and fresh. It goes to the extend that in the morning i would walk out form the hall I am living in and get some fresh air before entering class =)). It feels so refreshing.

Weather here is awesome...seriously. It can be as crazy as a women!!! So we have to always be prepared to have our sweat shirt with us =) Everything here is so beautiful that i can't ask for more!! Campus is just next to the lake and when the lake freezes we can walk on it and go ice fishing!!! Something on my to-do list =)

Guess I am growing spiritually too =) Haven't really yet confirm which will be my home church but guess its all God's leading. I have found intervasity and i guess its just the first step. Currently the church that i am attending has most intervasity people there. Though the people are as friendly as Malaysia i guess I have to start somewhere. And yes people back in Malaysia...stop complaining. Church is this, that....bla bla bla. Appreciate what you have!!! People in Malaysia are way way nicer when it comes to church - i meant in hospitality...they are way way more welcoming than people here!!! Guess this is what i was until i come here. lesson learn.

Anyway everything has been falling into place really well and Thank God for Malaysian friends who are so helpful  =) Plus they are treat me like their little sister...so awesome for them

Miss all back home....in different parts of the world!!!!

Thursday, September 23, 2010

In Christ Alone

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless Babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save

?Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live, I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again

And as He stands in victory
Sin?s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From a life?s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell, no scheme of man
Could ever pluck me from His hand
?Til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I stand

I will stand, I will stand
All other ground is sinking sand
All other ground, all other ground
Is sinking sand, is sinking sand
So I stand

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Titiless???

Its been ages since i last blog!!! Guess nothing much to say show. Hahaha......and i guess its about time to get it moving. Its been roughly round 3 weeks since i came to this new place. Its a really really nice place here. The people...weather - which soon i might not like..wahaha. Since arriving here, I am guess i have been lost!!! Its a new environment and have to like start life a new again =) more independent!!! But all in all i am sure its going to be a wonderful experience =p

Today went for intervasity christian fellowship...at least this is a place on campus where i can say i feel the most comfortable with. I guess that this would some what be the same like HELP CF but I'm sure God has installed better things for me to get involve in and to grow spiritually.

Found out something so true!!! =) =( haha

Friday, July 16, 2010

The Blind Side

Watch a movie alone yesterday!!! Was contemplating between 2 shows but somehow I choose the blind side.
Read the summary but it did not really say anything about Christianity but what made me wanted to watch the movie was it says that it's a real life show!!! So why not huh??

I guess is one of a movie that got me thinking a lot. Many a times we call ourselves Christian yet do we actually follow a Christian way of living. Sometimes we just use you so conveniently as a title or whatever you may call.

This movie has Christian elements. Basically there is this black obese boy/man without education or more so he couldn't be bothered about studying. He has a messed up life. So there is this man wanting to register his son and so at the same time he pull string and ask whether the school would accept the other boy as his GPA is only 0.2 or something like that.....but is really bad. That man met with a football coach and asked him to help -  which he did.
While in conversation with other teachers and principal - because they did not want to accept him - the coach say that isn't this a Christian school. And made them think again

So they accepted the boy called Michael. The first day he entered school everyone looked down on him and he even had to leave the home he stays and he does wondering around. Somehow there is this Christian family and the lady pitted him and brought him in. She showed him love and took care of him like a son.

She never once looked down on him but continue to help him in every way. He felt very much at home!!!

This show reflects how much God's love towards us and it never changes!!!! It remain the same be it to the poor rich. He loves all and never depise his children and always welcome them back and love them.

A thought to think is that, we should once again not be so comfortable in our places and reach out to people that are different form us. We should not show favoritism!!! Let's walk the TALK (Try A Little Kindness). =)

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Ask! Seek! Knock!

Just want to thank God for the wonderful things he have done through my university application..everything is so smooth moving!

Yesterday went and did my interview for my US visa and i DID NOT have any promblems!!!! Thank God for His favor. Psalms 5:12 =)

The interview was so smooth and i got my visa in about an hour plus. The question ask were simple and so few. 

While doing my devotion yesterday and the it was all on prayer and it struck me that when you ask and seek and knock...He is there and He will answers prayer. 

Also want to thank the AUNTIES for their prayers!!! =)

All in all just want to thank GOD for His favors!!!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Who Am I

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Netball

Since i had no classes on friday, took the opportunity to follow the girls for their competition. Glad that i was able follow them and see how they fare after much training =). Visitors actually aren't allowed to enter - only teachers and so i had to dressed up like a "teacher". This bunch of girls are really awesome. Haha...glad that i get to know them a little better compared to last time, despite being in the same school. I think its never too late. Never hear one side of the story...that is what i learned.

Okay back to the topic....i sacrifice my sleep for them =). LOL. but it is something worth to do!!! The teachers went and register them and i followed the girls to get a place for "picnic" - which is definitely not under the sun!!!!They thought their game was at 8 but some how they played only around like 10 because of the no so well planning. They were complaining but i'm sure they had a pretty good time skipping school. Haha.

They mange to go through the semi-final and they had to play Bintang Selatan. It was a really tough match and i think they did really well to get back in the game despite losing 9-10. They played their hearts out!!! This reminded me when i was in form 4 and we were in the finals....playing hard and also enjoying ourselves on the court. The situation was tense when we drew and manage to get a goal before the final whistle. It was exactly like the girls but they did not mange to win.

However, they did well once more to gain a third position in zone pudu. The trend of bringing back medals have not stop!!!! =)

What i enjoy most was the time spent with them and all the little chats =)

Seriously they are really an awesome bunch of girls =)

*change my mind....decided not to 'disowned' them =)

Sunday, March 28, 2010

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel

Sunday, February 21, 2010

CNY 2010

Grandma (mum's side) was not in town on the first but yet we still headed down to Klang to visit relatives there. Went around and later at night went to late grand dad's side to visit his sisters. Parents bought pizza over and that what most younger ones had. After dinner, the kids open their own table - play poker. Seriously when it comes to playing all this i'm not really interested. Instead i look at wedding photos =).

On monday parents had open house and so was busy helping out. Mum cooked prawn mee!!!! Did not had it till late at night cause next day had to fly off to Sandakan.

Since it's a morning flight, had to get up pretty early and when we reach Sandakan, dad's supplier to us around. He was like the tour guide when we were there. After lunch, he brought us to Sepilok. It was like a 20 minutes drive from the town. Watch them being fed. These orang utans are pretty well maintained unlike the animal in the zoos. Not many of them came out - maybe due to a slight shower - but there were at least three of them. I think we spent at least on hour. Had seafood dinner. The prawns are just so juicy and sweet there is really found in penisular.

Next day went to Sim-Sim and had our breakfast - but it was more towards lunch time cause we had to wait at least an hour to find a table. Every dish has prawns in it and other seafood. After that we took a drive down to the Proboscis Monkey Sanctuary. It took us about 1 hour. These monkeys aren't like the orang utans - more tame. There are wild monkeys. We were so lucky to be able to see t 3 different tribes of the monkey.

At night we had seafood again, and this time round is the place where mum and me went when we were in Sandakan.

Pics will be coming =)

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Negeri Di Bawah Bayu

All the way from Sandakan Blogging =) lol. Am chillaxing in the room. Parents room and our is connected so there is 2 television and no one will fight....sports..sports...sports. Haha

Dad's supplier took us out the whole day and we went to Sipilok - visit orang utan. It was raining but Thank God it was not heavy and we manage to see the feeding. So awesome. After that headed back to the town and walk around to see what's there and also to look for food!!!! Especially the seafood. The prawns here are so nice and fresh.

Not sure what's up for tomorrow but am super sure there's more seafood to come. =)

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

2 years...

Its been 2 years since you left us so suddenly. Can't imagine when we three sister are still at home and parents were not home. Thought we did not wake up to their call and they left for church without us. Next thing we know it was not even our fault as the time show that's the exact time we should be leaving for church. Fel woke up and say where's daddy and mummy and that got Mon and me jump from the bed. Called them and ask them are you on the way to church. However what we thought were not true. It turn out to be a tragic incident. We could not do anything but just sat on the bed and cry. Knowing that you will be leaving us soon.

Since you could not wait and have to leave all of us, they decided to bring you back home - as what yo had wish. They did as what you have told. Dad came back and fetch us and we knew that you were not in good condition when we saw dad came back home. I think he did teared. He pick us and took us straight to Ge Ku house. We reach there first and so help Ge Kim and the rest to clean up. Soon you arrive attach with all the oxygen tank and all just to help you breath. Ah ma was really sad and she rushed to your side. Sat next to you...and the rest of us were doing our own things. We could not do anything to help you.

Since it was lunch and nobody wanted to leave, dad and me went to get food. Few hours later, you got better and wanted to sit up. You saw each and everyone of us. Without a second thought, we send you back to the hospital and this time most of us went. Thinking that you will be better. It was in the evening when all of us went back home to get rest and shower up.

Mummy and daddy went back to the hospital. A few grand aunties were also there. However, you could not wait and left us around 10 plus. It was around 12 something and dad and mum was still not home, i called them and got the news that you could not wait and have gone.

It's been two years but this memory of you is still fresh. I even remembered when you were walking near daddy's office and you were smiling so big. I called you but mummy say you 'pekak' and i called louder. Haha. Never knew that was one of the last time i will see you walking around so healthily.

We have never forgotten you and you will always be in our memory forever. You have been a great grandfather that love us so much.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Sandakan

Did a two day trip to Snadakan to pass fel some stuff and also to visit her. The flight to Sandakan was pretty empty and we got the whole row to ourselves. When we reach there some fella which brought us to the hotel. Check in and after that went to the town. The town is super small, like KK. Was lunch time so went and look for food.Manage to look for a Chinese stall and went in. Since the food look weird...mum say the safest thing to eat is fried rice. But we also ordered century egg dumpling which is awesome!!! Is a must try food there.

Headed back to the hotel and got fel stuff and pass it to her. Wanted to take her out from the camp but the commander do not allow. So went back to hotel and rested.

Had dinner with dad's cousin near the port of Sandakan. The seafood there is just so good. Super fresh and big. Had crab, prawn, fish, siput and one veg.

The next day we decided not to take the taxi - save money so took the bus instead. Wanted to eat fish noodle but not sure where...ask people. Bus took us to the wrong place but the good thing is that we manage to find a chinese hardware shop that knows that place. Ask the owner and he told us where but still not sure. So an uncle say if can wait then he will fetch us. So we waited lor.

The uncle drop us there and had all kind of fish paste. After that took a super mini bus back to the hotel. Went to Giant to get fel stuff. Even before leaving the hotel to go to her campsite we had to go to Giant again to get her KFC.

Spent like 4 hours there. Kinda bored after a while. Fel ask her friend's mother to send us to the airport.

All in all....God is the one who send different people to help us. Just want to Thank God =)

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Thank God

Its been 1 week since result came out and i really want to Thank God for blessing me with such good results. The results are really unexpected, thought that it will be worst but God is so good. 

Am in my 3rd year already....gosh time flies so fast!!!! Anyway had a few subjects in mind and when i went to see Lynn she told me that i actually need to take 2 subject. Was really shock but i'm sure there is a purpose for it. =) Dad will have to pay lesser for fees too which its a good thing. Plus i heard that my fees overseas is also cheaper now . So really want to thank God.

Friday, January 1, 2010

2010

Spent my early hours with parents at the mamak and night but morning until evening the new year is spent with the youth. Hehe =) Met them in KLCC and did take some pics...but the main one were the soooon to be married couple.

After that went to Aquaria. We went into the fish tank...haha. The funniest thing about Malaysia is that the people do not use my common sense. Would anyone think a college or university student pay a cheaper price than those who are just in secondary school??? Hmmm...but wait the management did not!!! College or university srudent pay much more cheaper than the school-goers.

Its a new year and things are sure to be changing...major change would happen. Fel is leaving in another few hours to Sandakan for NS and i'll be flying off soon too.

As for college...subjects offered this coming semester is so much better compared to the prvious semester where there were limited business subjects. Hopeully i'm able to take all four business subjects that are offered.

God i'm believing that you will give me the best results!!!!

BLESSED NEW YEAR!!!